2010年4月23日星期五
note 2rd on Hometown Journey countdown: tickets of train ready.
this again a brilliant morning. i stayed in office for the last work day in the week. i saw bliss of God, as well as of my girl zhou, for whom i searched via cyberspace for so many years, with whom we will at least have a twin babies in coming years that soon, and who follows me the best. God, sees my love for u, for ur Heaven, for my beloved, my passed dad, my baby son in growth, Masheng the Japanese Crowned Queen of mine, my girls that's praying for our reunion in their prime time. God, save me from eagerness for my new life ahead, like the marvelous booming summer season in my hometown, central China!
2010年4月22日星期四
1st note in countdown of hometown journey.
2010年4月21日星期三
a chat with baby's mom, emakingir, about the inferior of Chinese.
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edit&corrected my typo in Chinese.
posted yesterday:
yesterday, God let me prepared to return to my hometown. now preparing working environment for baby's gaming&entertainment, by buying a new dell notebook. i will stay till the working environment working for baby, then i start my hometown journey, the second since recent years.
life so sweat with God's guidance.
2010年4月20日星期二
Holy love in a pale day, Masheng sees.
19/4/2010
a gloomy day with heartbreaking love&pardon.^those days i slept sound. after visited office later than 8am, got know by chat with baby's mom, emakingir, online, that baby cried in the morning, don't want to join the kindergarten. ema likely weeps online. my heart fulfilled with sorry and loving. the weather also reminded me unfavorable, so i left office to visit baby son. the kindergarten quite near my office, a tour on foot for less than 10 minutes. i doubting if dog, ie. porter will blocked me, for in China dog or cops dominating all fields. but God lets me direct walked to the classroom baby members. the teacher received me with smile, and asked who i m. i told her i m the father. as soon as caught sight of baby, i kneed a leg and squadded to talk with baby. i talked him how his parents love him, and urged him happy time should arrives in sequence, in our anticipation with patience. baby nodded when i affirmed him. i kiss his cheek&left with his consent. in office i roamed for about an hour, reviewing love in my family, between Son&God. then most of the day enjoying reading and web assets hunting. in the restaurant, some trifle people, likely some were my once colleagues, babbled about Internet and China censorship. returned to dorm, i sorted stuff awhile, then again reviewed love of Holy between baby and me, in music lately after 11pm. when i returned from lavatory&prepared to sleep, the kitty in the dorm visited me and ask for food. i went to the grocer within the dorms area&bought it 2 sausage, fed it with a small one. the roommate of its owner, a grey man i referred in previous blog, went to buy ready food&found us. i let him take away the kitty with the remnant of the sausage. its really not bad to feed a animal friend.now its a bright morning, with crisp breeze and brilliant sunshine. when i got up i found some queues on the ground, with a lecturing man. likely they r senior collegians taking practice here in the factory. God, time sliding, where is my beloved?
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.
sunset among trees outside of QRRS stadium.
QRRS statue in sunset.
a slice of grass in front of my office.
Posted via email from benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly...鸠昱隆嘉
2010年4月18日星期日
shines baby son with God in weekend's visit, rid off dwelling devil.
18/4/2010
visit baby son yesterday.^yesterday is a bright day. when i arrived, baby son watching animation online. God let me doubt if i should buy him his favorite food first, but i didn't, except a capsule of dry beef i bought last day. then i launched to backup my stuff to dvds via my Acer notebook left to baby's mom to use those months, restored the os from backup. the grandma soon arrived, cooked us 2 meat dishes: a chicken with mushroom, a fish. the noise of her cutting the chicken let baby uncomfortable, and he asked his mom and me to care him by sat around him. after lunch, with which i quite enjoyed while baby ate less, baby was brought outside by his mom for sunburn, while i busy with installing all new games on the notebook, after trying to restore its previous personal settings. baby slept on way near his mom's home, i was asked to fetch them, met them when baby dozed on his mom's back. after shown ema some stuff, ie. cliparts and templates, for her courseware, and educational multimedia for baby son, i went to public bathroom, where i showered&haircut. bought baby son icecream. baby enjoyed it at once after i returned there. then shown baby newly installed games. baby partially attracted&tried some with my companion. the devil, the grandma, likely maltreated baby son with rudeness and sins, so when i talked about God, baby shown impatience, and reluctant to game on the digital virtual land i trust a lot. God, u know what i want to pray, never let baby son erode by meaningless boring nor too much wasted time among human that's meaningless.baby's mom, emakingir, likely enchanted by the rich materials i prepared for her work. she let me replace my worn winter coat, later pants before i left, both never washed for the whole winter for i had no enough clothes to rotate, with in season suite. when i left, i forgot my under clothing left after shower. in the night the demons in neighbor room in QRRS dorms shown me their hatred when i went to lavatory to fetch boiled water. their sins more and more in my view.
its a pale day so far. the canteen of QRRS dorms, resumed into service after a month and more time to refurnish. but likely not so many residents in the dorms were attracted. i visited office after some doubts in the dorm room. now i will enjoy surfing as time glides. God, u save.
benzrad's tweet on Apr 16,2010
most of the morning sunny. enjoy flying with breeze online, by keeping gains from web resource. time to still the moment that's rich in the world. God saves me from aggressive hunting in the realm. i love staying with the intelligent properties so much. save me from danger, God. i surely abide self-restraint. let me fly and forget myself awhile! i enjoy the flood of freedom. - yesterday
last night busy with trying new games till 11pm, prepared for baby son in next visit. i also determined trying my best to game more in my own leisure time. its now a sunny morning, after yesterday's brilliance. God, save me in balance of resources hunting and enjoyment with the fruits of collecting&cultivating. i want less nerd and more persistent hero of life's truth, public and private. now let me submerging into stuff and news world again.
2010年4月14日星期三
God shows with crystal clearance and shocking accurateness his gift for the Son, me
harness rich media for family entertainment.^a cloudy day. busy with rich resource on web. dash and rush for store of plays. God, save me from obsessing with those stuff i reckon valuable and hold dear. i know u grant my hobby on it.
this late afternoon u let me meet up my baby son, God of Universe, Hope of China, u let me not to eat steam bun any more, u let me doubting what is wrong in my recent life. i m a bit in puzzle. God, i know the life of ur son can't be more glorious, i know any moment i molding history with my deed and choice. God, let me in ur love, in ur shine, in ur consistent joys, let my beloved closer to me, to my new life in growing the Royal of China.
God, i trust u. promise me forever covering me with Spirit!
below is benzrad's web comments on Apr 14, 2010, lunar first day of March.
the world aphasia upon sinful challenge.
Re: http://amplify.com/u/4ijh @shaor3 yes, world steadily steers into total war between religions. "smart people" just half-close their eyes upon the International dumbfound and mute upon the mutation and persistent evil challenge.
all after all, God saves. the sin's brewing, its rise and fall, wax and wane, all in God's setting. the land's residents can change, but the title of God never changes.
in reference to: http://jatfla.amplify.com/2010/04/13/obama-no-guarantee-on-sanctions/#liComment_403 (view on Google Sidewiki)
on war by muslim.
Benzrad Zhu Re: http://amplify.com/u/4ijp @shaor3 new forms of threats. war of security never stops, but changes forms. however, human history don't stopped by a single threat just for its alien harmful at cost of helpful.
on just-do-it life motto.
Benzrad Zhu Re: http://amplify.com/u/4io9 @dgrossman yes, the bible also suggests the greatest joy of now, being now.
on mobile payment encourage Intelligent property.
Benzrad Zhu insightful. easy payment on cell really somewhat encourage user to buy to read.
2010年4月13日星期二
quilty and sanity
13/4/2010
a windy morning but now sunny.^yesterday can called a accomplishment. my work style should prolonging it: blog, clog, plog with people sharing common interests. last night in office, i first time tried screenshot warez to demo baby's mom, emakingir, some powerpoint skill, before i left to dorm. when i informed her the file sent to her email box, she said baby was gaming on her notebook so she can't check it right now. i felt so glad to know that baby, who shown reluctance those days in the threatening of hot competition among Chinese youth even in childhood just for a securer advantage in the rat's race of burning&smashing social pot, enjoyed pc games alone, that i buzzed in later than 9pm. but baby was a bit confused by my query which game he played. so it turns clear that his mom likely lied to me in the claim that baby gaming. she always insecure upon her job, a middle school teacher, which is dirty and inferior equality among China education nowadays. she frequently hates anyone attempts to teach, the profession she still making a living with quite some gray incomes, with her barking at corner. i called back later than 10pm to inform her guilty of lying, and baby's, too. i felt an urgency to tell baby his mom is insane, just the same of his mom's mother, the grandma, in family name Ruan 阮. i then envisaged the source of being guilty, the Holy's pure sanity, his love to let people step out of their guilty or dark in just a repent to God, rid of harms of self-destructive and abuse of evil, and the ruined balance in their shabby lives by evil's don't gave up their lingering assault on human soul. i appeal for God's mighty to rid baby son any of sin, praying God to let me do at once over the need. praying that i never had to cram with any anxiousness to correct something, but anytime in Spirit and done in flicker of the thought's invite. i rest in love of God, and slept after 11pm.in the dawn, i was woke up by pains in stomachs. its the second time. i went to lavatory and shit, then resumed my dream on bed. i dreamed of all my brothers in my hometown. its a strong windy weather when i went to office, God let me shot a movie of the wind. after i settled in office and prepared posting, it turns bright sunny. God, saves me in Joice, in astonish of gift u present me. bring my girl zhou, my 3rd wife and crowned Queen of China, with my 2rd marriage. bring me closer to my 2nd wife, Masheng, my Japanese Crowned Queen, and our first son, my 2nd son, yearning for birth. bring me my most satisfied wife, my Taiwanese bride, to prepared our first son, my 3rd son, in my Royal. that's the brilliant today's meaning. God, u see.
From first rain in lunar 2010 |
From first rain in lunar 2010 |
video of windy in QRRS Dorms:
http://vimeo.com/10886898
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http://www.flickr.com/photos/benzhu/4516406073/
http://posterous.com/getfile/files.posterous.com/benzillar/FtOMt3560efHIqQllnmRfOZUkoerNc92N2DD0xXVANp7yXMvfKircbx0YTdK/windy_morning_in_QRRS_Dorms.mp4
[flickr video=4516406073 w=418 h=320]
for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.
abirds' meeting on top of trees.喜鹊跃高枝,齐车好出处.
birds' gathering, within QRRS factory area, with an abstract touch.齐车厂院聚喜鹊。
2010年4月12日星期一
benzrad's tweet&comment on Apr 12,2010
universal law's ruling, likely need reinforce from basic living support, as well as life assurance, in countries less developed, esp. those fight for a living with risk of life. Chinese society now deeply threatened by mafia, whose activities turns more frequent upon worsen economics and bankrupt political structure nowadays. when people trust their fairness upon law system maintained by their government, they less need dog, no matter dog system like police and bureaucracy, nor personal dark soul hunting for preys.
origin of humanity, and God's deed of choosing.
the idea is thoughtful. sense of equality born with human, but right time to be lightened in God's shine that God's chosen differs from the sinful. love is universal but sins cages quite some group of inhabitant on the earth. God chooses democracy on the earth, and human liable to abide the common welfare and rules.
Clipped from richardbrenneman.wordpress.com
George Orwell once noted that the "thing that attracts ordinary men to Socialism and makes them willing to risk their skins for it, the 'mystique' of Socialism, is the idea of equality." This is still the case. It is the growing inequality in and between societies that generates so many social pathologies. Grotesquely unequal societies are also unstable societies. They generate internal division and, sooner or later, internal strife – usually with undemocratic outcomes. As citizens of a free society, we have a duty to look critically at our world. But that is not enough. If we think we know what is wrong, we must act on that knowledge. Philosophers, it was famously observed, have hitherto only interpreted the world in various ways; the point is to change it.
Read more at richardbrenneman.wordpress.com
2010年4月11日星期日
a busy weekend with baby son, warrenzh, Hope of China, in pc games.
11/4/2010
a day for gaming with baby.^yesterday played pc games with baby since 9am to 4pm. when i arrived, baby was playing on his own. after backup web stuff&installed new games on pcs, we launched to try new games. obviously baby preferred small and cartoon games. his mom, emakingir, cooked us fried beef&rice as lunch. i bought baby some ice cream on way, baby enjoyed a cup of chocolate ice cream most of the time. when i left, God lets me take a taxi, and not to eat dinner in the day. in the night in dorm, when i listening music, and clapped when in high mood, gays in neighbor room stroke the thin wall to show animosity. dogs' prepared to humiliate the glory. this morning is a sunny morning, the sunshine warm and mild. i ate a bowl of noodle before visit office.last night the miserable kitty visit me again, i fed it with sausage i bought for it several days ago. it ate more than last time. it tried to linger in my room, but i can't raise a pet, so i shift the remnant of the sausage to its likely owner, then it followed me and left my room. the owner's room was locked, but when i met the owner, a young QRRSer, in lavatory, i got it that he still caring the cat. God, let me enjoy everyday and everything in ur kingdom on the earth.
From benzillar at flickr |
From benzyrnill at flickr |
a kitty in QRRS dorms, brutally hurt, eating sausage in benzrad, my room there.
a miserable kitty.
2010年4月7日星期三
a fuss over my financial status.
below is benzra'd today's commments on web:
Benzrad Zhu
Re: http://bit.ly/ds2tR3 @merriemarie strong holder of ur point. as to satellite dish, in my latest visit to my hometown village, a mountain village in Hubei Prov, central China, found satellite TV's signal so clear that can challenge cable TV. but what's disappointing, China authority banned free buy of the dish for national censorship, and bargains with its official HD channel's selling out by data encrypted. i really felt satellite TV is a cheap and working solution for distant or mountain area where cable TV first level investment amounts rocky.
Benzrad Zhu
Re: http://amplify.com/u/49ag @socratoad the human society evolved into new era of social relative form gene.
Benzrad Zhu
Re: http://bit.ly/dyuahx @wentzeldk China blocked the site, so i can't read it.
Benzrad Zhu
Re: http://bit.ly/dcDHoN @merriemarie likely the rule out is far-reaching effect. i do see the rationale in large scale's sharing: for quites resource of human achievements, if not locked under Intelligent property law's protection against the poor, human as a total can be enriched by the share, with which knowledge spreads and constructive effects nurtured.
2010年4月6日星期二
a day without regrets.
4/5/2010
a day without regret.^yesterday lingered in baby's mom's house from 9am to 4pm. when i arrived, baby was at home. for last night's heavy snow deterred baby in his grandma's house, while his mom, emakingir returned first with her bike. i busy with backup dvds, installed games for baby. when baby returned and asked me, i almost prepared him a working gaming environment. for this visit is the most time of free, so i tried a game, "Destruction Simulator 2010", with baby son, who also attracted by the game. later i help his mom, emakingir, learn to reuse other powerpoint template from current one, also shown her cliparts and other assets i collected from web for her courseware. the grandma brought baby arrived around 11am, cooked fried beef, then left without my notice. returned to dorm, i dined first, then dozed on bed till 8pm, slept earlier, around 10:30pm. glory of Son, that's never anything can compare with on the planet.From first rain in lunar 2010 |
From first rain in lunar 2010 |
From baby's works update |
baby son in game&refused shooting.
Qiqihar railway station in heavily snow, likely the last one in lunar 2010 spring.
baby son, warrenzh, 朱楚甲, treats his homework seriously. neat works!
2010年4月4日星期日
2 sunny days in sequence interweaved with snowing night: Masheng being with me.
4/4/2010
second bright sunshine after a clueless night.^yesterday i lingered in office from 10am to 4pm, and enjoyed my works of the day. dinner was meat pies and noodle. buzzed baby's mom, who once terrified by my penniless&attempted to narrow her risk with my current poor financial status, about my visit to my baby son. she admitted to schedule on next Monday. in the night i lingered near mid night, first time skimmed lyrics of some songs by Hanhong 韩红, Stefanie Sun 孙燕姿,the love stories in it really beautiful. neighbor evils responded for several times. by the time i went to bed, its warm&peaceful. but this morning i was woke up by rain drops on the roof. i got up after 12am, and astonished by the new snow. its thicker than last time, left quite some early birds tracks on the covered ground. its just too beautiful. when i went to lavatory, 2 inhabitant closed their doors loudly to show me their animosity. such a cheap soul in them. and God let me know don't doubting more about the snow, the gift from Masheng, my Japanese Queen in crown, who lingered so long with me in this arid land where i endured for my fortune in new marriage with my beloved girls. day in and day out, i worn to see the bright that's closer and closer. my route to my hometown, which should be a glory in God's title, scheduled urgent and shining more. i miss it so much.Ok, its a lonely moment when i blog here in the empty office. Masheng, when i can pick my new life that's fearless? i saw bliss on ur lips but distance in light a bit too far. save me in shorter journey to my destine or task from heaven here on the planet. maybe i m a bit exhausted now. God sees.
3/4/2010
refinement on family google sites in a bright day.^refined family google sites, including google apps' sites, adjust url remapping. sorted bookmarks&exported to diigo&delicious. a bright day after series of cloudy days.2/4/2010
proxy working strangely last afternoon. so launched to refine new blogger blogs and google sites. ema came over to send me living expense of ¥300 after work time. i then penniless. this morning arranged to finish many delayed task since the fatally dead China surveillance a month ago, adding group profile onto family posterous blogs. lagged heavily by slow traffic, but narrowly done. it drizzled in early night yesterday, when i left office later than 8pm. in the night it continued to snow and shallowly covered ground with white. now its spring, so it soon melt, just like a miracle. its now pale in sky. praying God pardon me lingering in office all work time in this week. i really have a full load of works. praying God guard my works against spying dog, the China surveillance. visit family new member sites:http://emyark.be21zh.org
http://amyaak.be21zh.org
http://emxark.be21zh.org
http://zhuzz.be21zh.org
http://zhucj.warozhu.com
for full list of my family web assets, visit here: http://goo.gl/FPtx or http://goo.gl/5ak7 or http://wiki.be21zh.org/zhlink
posted by http://amplify.com/u/3z4u
From first rain in lunar 2010 |
From first rain in lunar 2010 |
From first rain in lunar 2010 |